I wish I was passionate and dedicated about something. But I'm really not. I give up too easily. 

I kinda want to drive out in the middle of nowhere and just chill under the stars for a few hours. 

The Borgias. Why? Because 1) Jeremy Irons is in it and 2) it's just really well executed in terms of characters, plot, scenery, etc.

Been having shitty reoccurring dreams/nightmares lately. It's throwing off my days :( They carry over. Not the dreams themselves so much as the feelings they bring on. It sucks.

Had an awesome dream this morning about winning a race in a fantastical/partially underwater/Avatar-esque land.

Just showed up for work and found out I wasn't scheduled to work today. No wonder everyone was staring at me when I walked in heh

Man I hate Valentine's Day. And yes it's because I'm one of those people who've never had a Valentine and likely never will and happen to be a tad bitter about it.

My hair usually makes me wanna cry. Straightening it is such a pain in the ass. I'd like to wear it curly, and I've tried, but it just looks so funny on me (and not in the good way). My skin is very light and overall I'm just very "ethnically ambiguous" with my "asian" eyes, so afro-curly hair just makes me look like a confused mix of things. I'm not cute enough to wear my hair the way I want to. My hair in general is just so frustrating and makes me feel like crying (like right now...it makes me feel absolutely terrible about myself). I often want to chop it all off, but I know I look awful with that short of hair  and I don't feel like being called ugly by my family (and probably my coworkers). But at least it would be easy to manage...Actually, I like the way it looks really short, but I know no one else does...

I know, I know. Too bad, so sad. Get over it.

Tomorrow is the super bowl which means it's going to be incredibly busy at work. Probably the busiest day of the year. We spent all of tonight preparing for it.  So yeah...that'll be fun. But not really.

Psh, I don't know. Those damn ponies started Winter Wrap-Up early though.

For the past few days I've been insanely sleepy. I'm getting enough sleep at night, I just feel like I can't stay awake. I have trouble getting up and just staying awake. Whenever I close my eyes I feel like I'm going to fall asleep right then and there whether I'm standing or sitting. Coffee helps for maybe a half hour and then I feel tired again. When I'm tired, my eyes tend to cross when I'm reading something, so that's been happening too. It's really annoying.
I've never been particularly energetic, but some energy would be nice. I have things to do. My eyes just don't want to stay open, even now.