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Mar. 27th, 2014

Working and going to school at the same time was not a very good idea. I don't really know how people do it. That's too much going on for me. School on its own is fine, and work on its own is fine, but all the time and energy that goes into both together is too much for me. Now that I'm working, I don't have the emotional, mental, and/or physical energy to go to school and do all the homework. I feel bad, but I can't help it. And it's not like I'm going to just quit my job so I can focus on finishing school. I need a job, I need the money, and plus I like my job. And though I obviously don't think it's something I'd want to do for the rest of my life or as a career, I'd like to stay there for a few years at least. 

Two things I just wanted to mention

1. I recently discovered dandelion root tea and it's kind of my new favorite thing. It smells so earthy and good!

2. I'm getting really tired of ONTD being all over the front page of LJ. I don't like ONTD or any of the other "gossip-oriented" communities. I get that they're the most popular, but from what I've seen, they're hateful and petty comms and having their posts thrust in my face like that is getting on my nerves. 
I wish I was passionate and dedicated about something. But I'm really not. I give up too easily. 


I kinda want to drive out in the middle of nowhere and just chill under the stars for a few hours. 

Writer's Block: Critical Acclaim

Which television show doesn't (or didn't) get the love it deserves? Why do you think more people should know and love it as you do?
The Borgias. Why? Because 1) Jeremy Irons is in it and 2) it's just really well executed in terms of characters, plot, scenery, etc.

Mar. 12th, 2012

Been having shitty reoccurring dreams/nightmares lately. It's throwing off my days :( They carry over. Not the dreams themselves so much as the feelings they bring on. It sucks.


Had an awesome dream this morning about winning a race in a fantastical/partially underwater/Avatar-esque land.



Just showed up for work and found out I wasn't scheduled to work today. No wonder everyone was staring at me when I walked in heh
Man I hate Valentine's Day. And yes it's because I'm one of those people who've never had a Valentine and likely never will and happen to be a tad bitter about it.

Low self esteem is fun...

My hair usually makes me wanna cry. Straightening it is such a pain in the ass. I'd like to wear it curly, and I've tried, but it just looks so funny on me (and not in the good way). My skin is very light and overall I'm just very "ethnically ambiguous" with my "asian" eyes, so afro-curly hair just makes me look like a confused mix of things. I'm not cute enough to wear my hair the way I want to. My hair in general is just so frustrating and makes me feel like crying (like right now...it makes me feel absolutely terrible about myself). I often want to chop it all off, but I know I look awful with that short of hair  and I don't feel like being called ugly by my family (and probably my coworkers). But at least it would be easy to manage...Actually, I like the way it looks really short, but I know no one else does...

I know, I know. Too bad, so sad. Get over it.

Tomorrow is the super bowl which means it's going to be incredibly busy at work. Probably the busiest day of the year. We spent all of tonight preparing for it.  So yeah...that'll be fun. But not really.